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damn…due to my odd working hours…it has greatly affected my running…..having lesser time to run on the weekdays…last week…apart from my run on Wednesday…i only managed to have my second run for the week on Saturday evening at about 6.30pm alone…this is the first time i ran alone and it’s my first time running in the evening…haha…4.58km = 36mins…

On Monday and Tuesday…plan to run with Ah Heng cos he is currently clearing his leave….hoping that i would finish work on time…however due to unforeseen circumstances….only managed to leave office at 2.00a.m and by then it was already too late to run…
Finally manage to leave office on time today…met Zhenwei for a run….man i feel good….4.58km = 34mins….however my right knee cap is giving me a problem today…but still i endured the pain and drag myself to the very end of the journey….

today’s run made me think about alot of stuff….after much thinking…i come to the conclusion that i still do not have faith in man and i can’t treat them too well or else they’ll take it for granted…haha….

Today Cheryl send out her invitation to her wedding on 12/01/2007 Friday…man another friend is getting married…i wonder how did she find the faith in man that i am so lacking these days…i wouldn’t say that i’m sad or anything…cos i’ve come to terms that human beings are very strong mentally…stronger than most people know….God created us with a spirit of power…He didn’t created us with a spirit of fear….and this power lies within all of us…and i’m trying to figure out this spirit of power….

Yesterday my sister finally decided to walk out of her relationship problem that she was stuck in for many years…well…i hope that she’ll be able to find that power within herself and be strong….let me say again…WHAT DOESN’T KILL US MAKES US STRONGER

been feeling really tired recently…every Sunday i am almost falling asleep during service and i think that i haven’t been spiritually fruitful….sigh….

Oh my God, Joe Pringle the worship leader of Christian City Church has cut his hair…haha…it’s no big deal…but i thought he is pretty cute…not because of his looks….but there is a certain shyness in this guy and he is spiritually anointed that makes him attractive…sometimes having good looks doesn’t necessary makes a person attractive…i think it’s how anointed and how closely a person is walking with God that makes a person attractive…

Today’s Preacher: Phil Pringle

Check out these website:
1.    www.chc.org.au
2.    www.philpringlegallery.com

Wise words:
"God gives us the power to wealth, He doesn’t give us wealth directly but He gives us the power to achieve wealth."

Today’s Sermon:
"The Importance Of Prayer"
Prayer is the most powerful thing a Christian could do.
Prayer is the one thing that Jesus wants us to do.
The source of our success is in the way that we pray.

Hebrew 11:6

And without faith it it impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

Our Father in heaven: Our is unity.

Jesus said our father…He didn’t say My Father. We’re following Jesus together, not on our own. We’re following Jesus in one accord and in one place.

Hallow be Your name: Making God’s name holy, making Him be known to the world.

If you seek for me and search for me with all your heart, you’ll find me.

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.

Anyone with performance based faith will at some point feels that God doesn’t care about you.

If you seek him more than any other thing, everything will turn out right.

The only way to be like Jesus, we need to spend time with Him, walk with Jesus you’ll be like an image of Jesus.

If we do not seek the Lord, when the time He comes, we might not even recognize Him.

Negative frame of mind you will not be able to see the opportunities in your life.

Why do you seek the Lord:

• Because He bring his rewards with him
• You will understand the mysteries in your life.
• Those who seek the Lord prosper.
• You will have victory in life.

Prayer is not asking God for stuffs, but it’s a way for you to connect with God.

Nothing is impossible with God.

Daniel 6:25
Then King Darius wrote to all the peoples, nations and men of every language throughout the land:
"May you prosper greatly! I issue a decree that in every part of my kingdom people must fear and reverence the God of Daniel. For he is the living God and he endures forever; his kingdom will not be destroyed, his dominion will never end. He rescues and he saves; he performs signs and wonders in the heavens and on the earth, He has rescued Daniel from the power of the lions."

Feeling: Spiritual

updated my blog….can’t believe it…i know i haven’t been updating it…but i didn’t know it was for so long…and when i start to think back about what has kept me so busy that i didn’t even have the time to do it…i really can’t remember why…

last week has been pretty emotionally eventful for me….hmmm how should i put it….i had my laughter and i have my tears….i had my run and i also have my slacking times….I’ve been really busy with work but at the same time i really enjoyed it…cos my colleagues are so great that sometimes i feel so lucky to work with them….Cindy has been really nice…guiding me through my work…helping me resolve alot of problems and doubts that i face in work…Li Tsan has been really patience with my mistakes and tolerant with my work…hahaha….Shaun has been entertaining me with his funny Chinese emails….always asking me to do a Mambo 101 dance for him during office hours….JC has been really funny when she told us about her Japanese Oral Examination where she kept hitting her head…..Nick is funny…last Friday i was on leave…therefore, i decided to send him an ecard that says that I’ll be on leave and he can play with my toy F1 Ferrari race car…however, he didn’t receive that ecard at all…and when he saw my toy car on his table…he got really panic….he asked Cindy who put it there….he was so worried and said "If Tracy ever finds out that her toy car is on my table…she is going to kill me"…haha so funny…oh by the way….Nick is my boss…life has been great….sometimes i really wonder what more can i ask in life….yet no one’s life is perfect…you have your ups…you also have your downs….and it’s your downs that makes you a stronger person as a whole….and I’m still learning to be strong…

Tried running last Saturday…6km = 50mins….today had my  run again….4.58km = 32mins….sigh…have wanted to run more…but due to the sudden increase in my workload….sometimes i just feel so tired….sometimes by the time i finished work….all my running friends are asleep liao…..

Met Ah Heng after work to pick up my "Baby" a.k.a beloved N73 Nokia phone….it’s finally back home…yeah!!! I’m going to start using it again…taking photos and stuffs…..**smiling now**
i really felt pampered when Ah Heng passed me 2 more toy cars….currently Shell Petrol Station is selling Ferrari Toy cars and so far…I’ve managed to collect 3 of them….yeah!!! The 1st one was from Kevin and today I’ve another 2 more….haha….I’m a die hard F1 Ferrari fan…..it’s really heartwarming when your friends pamper you with simple things like that….knowing that i like F1….without even me telling them…they took the effort to get me the toy cars….in fact i didn’t even know that Shell Petrol Station was selling them…until Kevin got me the 1st one…hopefully I’ll be able to collect all of them….

Today after my run….while i was cooling down with Zhenwei…both of us realized that tonight the sky was so beautifully filled with stars…therefore…we decided to lie flat on the road and glaze at the stars….of course we were not crazy to lie on the middle of the road….those who has been to my place should know that at the far end of the road to my place is pretty empty and it’s also late at night liao….so there were no cars at all lor….hmmm….it’s really a very relaxing feeling….it makes me feel that sometimes we’re so busy with work and stuffs….how often to we really take the time to detach from the world like that….

Was talking to Zhenwei for quite a bit after our run…we were chatting about life in general….and he made me realized that maybe I’ve taken life for granted….always assuming that there is tomorrow for everything…what if tomorrow never comes….what would i regret not doing today…there are so many things I’ll regret if tomorrow never comes…..therefore…I’ll also urging everyone to reflect upon this fact…and start doing things that you’ll not regret if tomorrow indeed not comes….haha…am i being too pessimistic?? i hope not…in fact i feel so encouraged by him now…i shouldn’t be wasting my time…i should be more enthusiastic about life as a whole….

Feeling: Blessed

2 of my Russian colleagues (Alexey and Sergei) who came over to Singapore for 3 months to train the new "Claims" Team, they decided to organize a Russian Party at their service apartment at The Ascott today….haha
it’s really fun….for those who had never been to a Russian Party….let me just warn you….in a Russian Party…there are loads of Vodka and other alcoholic drinks!!! can you imagine their entire fridge was filled with alcohol….from beers to vodka to God knows what….haha…..
Today Alexey and Sergei prepared some food for us….there were Olives…Smoked Salmon with pancakes….and we brought along a cake…oh…there were cheese as well….hmmm…yummy…
told myself that i’m not going to drink as i’m going for a run with Ah Heng tonight…however…before i realized it…i had already drown down a glass of Martini with Orange juice….(damn…there goes my running plan)….so i thought…since i won’t be able to run at all already…i drank other 3 glasses more…haha
Alexey was showing us a Russian movie and was translating for us…it was so funny cos his translation is a bit slow and most part of the movie was about Russians drinking Vodka and men in a sauna half naked….so Michelle’s hubba was asking if it’s a Russian Man Porn Flick….hahaha….oh Michelle’s hubba is another cute Irish guy…..hee hee….
After awhile…Alexey decided that translating is too tiring…he decided to sing something in Russian for us….haha…it’s so funny….cos no one can understand what the hell he is singing….
Sergei tried to show us his wedding photos with the DVD machine…but it’s not working therefore…he decided to try his luck with XBox  Machine….or was it the Playstation Machine…anyway i really can’t differentiate….
Sergei’s wedding is done in the 30s style…it’s really really cool….he was explaining the culture of Russian’s Wedding and what happened that day….it’s really a funny gathering…i didn’t expect the Russian Party to turn out so great….but as i was due to meet Ah Heng…i’ve got to leave early…but guess i did the right thing to leave earlier cos if not…i’ll be dead drunk…..

i’m going crazy soon…..with my bills piling over me…..haiz…..
today i finally informed my parents that i’m going for a short trip to Thailand….so i causally asked whether if they are going for holidays during next year Chinese New Year….
me and my big mouth….they said yah…as usual…they’ll be going to a different part of China…i think my folks are planning to conquer China….haha….
however….my dad told me to give him 3,000bucks for the China trip….sigh….$$$….i think no matter how much i’m earning…i’ll never get to save at all….there are just too much commitments….i’m desperate to get a part-time job…..help….SOS….

by sleeping….slept at 5.30a.m this morning…woke up at 4.00p.m and went back to sleep again at 5.30p.m….woke up again at 7.00p.m….
decided that i’ve been such a slacker today….called up Zhenwei to ask him out for dinner….
finally left home at 8.00p.m….
had dim sum at Geylang before heading back home again….aiyo….before i know it…Saturday is over….haiz…..wasted one day doing nothing but sleeping and eating only….i very jialet…..

or am i an unhealthy person with a healthy lifestyle??
haha…
anyway…it’s been such a long time since i had a gathering with Felicia and Chelsea….these 2 babes are the first few friends i made when i first joined Credit Suisse…
it’s amazing how busy work can be for all of us that even when we’re working in the same company on the same floor….we hardly get the chance to talk to each other face to face….haha
i remembered before work really starts for all of us…we would go for dinner frequently at our Breakout Area….a.k.a our canteen….
however….all 3 of us are crazy busy with work now that we no longer go for dinner together….Chelsea has become a "Ta Bao" queen….Felicia has her new dinner buddy as our timing for dinner always clash….
i’m really glad that today we finally made an extra effort to go for a drink together after work….Felicia and Chelsea left office at 1.30a.m whereas i left at 2.00a.m….we met up at Crazy Elephant at Clark Quay…all of us had a glass of "Sex on the beach" and before we know it…the pub is closing at 3.00a.m…therefore…we decided to head on to Attica for our 2nd round of drinks….i had a glass of Red Wine…hmmm….it’s been really quite awhile since i last had any alcoholic drinks….3 of us were really desperate for a drink after a long week of crazy work….haha….
i really enjoyed their company and i hope that they have enjoyed mine too…..love these babes forever….

it got me thinking on my way back….am i a healthy person with an unhealthy lifestyle or am i an unhealthy person with a healthy lifestyle….cos i run at least 3 times per week now…but i still embrace drinking!!! haha….
conclusion: i’m a runaholic as well as an alcoholic…..yeah….

Feeling: Glad to have these 2 babes as friends and colleagues….

This is a song to tell all the guys out there not mess around with me….hahaha

http://www.mtv123.com/html/play/8/play_72727.html

U & Ur Hand

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Check it out
Going out
On the late night
Looking tight
Feeling nice
It’s a **** fight
I can tell
I just know
That it’s going down
Tonight
At the door we don’t wait cause we know them
At the bar six shots just beginning
That’s when dick head put his hands on me
But you see

I’m not here for your entertainment
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh

Midnight
I’m drunk
I don’t give a ***k
Wanna dance
By myself
Guess you’re outta luck
Don’t touch
Back up
I’m not the one
Buh bye
Listen up it’s just not happening
You can say what you want to your boyfriends
Just let me have my fun tonight
Alright

I’m not here for your entertainment
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh oh
Break break
Break it down

In the corner with your boys you bet up five bucks
To get at the girl that just walked in but she thinks you suck
We didn’t get all dressed up just for you to see
So quit spilling your drinks on me yeah

You know who you are
High fivin, talkin ****, but you’re going home alone arentcha?

Cause I’m not here for your entertainment
No
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight
I’m not here for your entertainment
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight
Yeah oh

it’s the best!!!
Finally got to run with Ah Heng on a weekday again…ever since i started my Daylight Saving Shit…i ain’t got the chance to run with him on a weekday….as per promised….he is supposed to run with me at least once on a weekday each week….
4.53km = 31mins…
today i broke another personal record…i’m faster than  yesterday…faster than all my previous run…haha…hopefully i’ll be able to break this record too….

Feeling: I feel empowered…

The workload hasn’t been too heavy today….therefore…i’ve finally managed to draft out an excel spreadsheet for my expenditure and how i can start clearing my credit cards bills that are piling up on me….i really think that i don’t shop much….but somehow…every month….i have tons of bills to clear….especially now that i know that i’ll be going to Bangkok in December…i thought i better start planning my finances and make sure that i do not over spend…and i better start saving given the fact that i’m earning more now….

After work….finally had a run again with Zhenwei….4.53km : 33mins….and now…i’m blogging again…haha….ok dokey….time for my beauty sleep…..

P.S: If anyone needs to draft out their expenditure…i’m an expert now…haha..just kidding…

Feeling: Today has been a fruitful day….