ihavepmsagain

The past 1 week has been like a dream come true for me….it was like a honeymoon period for me and the man….it’s like falling in love again…just that this time it’s sweeter and deeper….

The man had made an effort to reassure his feeling for me….made an effort to make this relationship work out….make an effort to sms me sweet texts….make an effort to fetch me home from work…..make an effort to be patient with me….what more can i ask for…

God has been great and truly to be praise….have been attending Mass with the man and the feeling of being in the house of the Lord with the man that you love it’s such an pleasing experience…

Saturday evening had a meeting with Yvonne with the man by my side….love the fact that he gotten along with my friend…well it’s not the first time they met though…hee hee….after dinner we went for a drink at the McDonalds at Shaw House….and guess what…i saw Siva…the man who tortured me emotionally for 3 years….made me a slave of his….but i wasn’t even sad at all….cos the man was with me and for that moment i was glad that i was no longer suffering with Siva….but God has bless me with a soulmate, a best friend and a lover….the man is just amazing to me….

Sunday was suppose to attend the 7.00a.m. Mass with the man and his parents….ended up his parents couldn’t wake up…but the man still made an effort to wake up and attend the Mass with me…it feels really good holding his hands during Mass….presenting ourselves as a loving couple in the Lord’s house…hee hee….happiness could be such simple things in life…

Had a buffet lunch with his folks and i had so much fun hanging around them….I’m glad that i’ve gotten so well with his parents….talk to them over lunch…joke with them….ate alot….after that freaking full meal….the man and i decided to wash his car together as a workout….it’s the first time we did this together….it was really fun but tiring too lor….it feels good to do things like that together….we joke and joke…and just simply enjoy each other’s company….like a silly loving couple….

Feeling: So bless….i just hope that this honeymoon will last forever and ever….amen!!!

God has a perfect timing for everything that happen….even when it might cause temporary sadness but HE loves me and has a perfect plan for me to be happy.

The man and i have finally found peace with each other and has decided to be with each other……went to the car workshop on Saturday afternoon….spent 4 hours standing around, waiting for the mechanic to install his new inter-cooler for his car….the strange thing is that both of us could just stand there for hours, not feeling tired or bored….not doing anything else apart from just talking to each other and be happy….maybe happiness is just such simple thing in life that we have taken for granted in the past.

Today went to mass with him and i love that feeling!!! Love the fact that the man loves God as much as i do….love the fact that i woke up late and he was still happy to attend the second mass with me….love the fact that we could hold hands in the house of the Lord and receive HIS blessing….love the fact that we are happy in each other’s company….love the fact that he is trying his best to assure me his feelings for me….

Life is too good to be true right now…..

i hope to continue to be able to share the rest of my life with you….

to be with the love of my life….i’ll be waiting for you dear dear…..

I am sailing
I am sailing
Home again
Cross the sea
I am sailing
Stormy waters
To be near you, to be free.

I am flying
I am flying
Like a bird
Cross the sky.
I am flying
Passing high clouds,
To be with you, to be free.

Can you hear m
Can you hear me
Through the dark night, far away,
I am dying, forever crying,
To be with you, who can say.

Can you hear me
Can you hear me,
Through the dark night far away.
I am dying, forever crying,
To be with you, who can say.

We are sailing
We are sailing,
Home again
Cross the sea.
We are sailing
Stormy waters
To be near you, to be free.

Oh lord, to be near you, to be free.
Oh lord, to be near you, to be free,
Oh lord.

managed to spend the entire day with him…it’s more than i could ask for at this stage….

we had our laughs and fun time together…it’s like back to the old days when we were still together….well he has never left my heart….he is my best friend, my soulmate and my boyfriend (should i start saying ex-bf??)….

i guess only till that day my heart no longer holds him anymore…i’ll probably say that but right now i refuse to…..i’ll wait for him till he returns if God is being kind to me….

i still love him (Alvin) so much…..

On National Day the man chose to break up with me…

My heart has been broken….oh Lord heal me….put back the little pieces of my broken heart back together into 1 whole piece again….

All the crying for the past 2 days seems a bit too much for my body…felt sick today while i was at work….kept sneezing and feeling i’m gonna faint any minute….

Had a 1.5hours meeting with my colleagues…talking about how to restructure the whole team….i was just struggling not to faint…but the forever talkative me still managed to drop some good suggestions during the meeting…it’s been such a long time since the whole team work together to brainstorm something together….the feeling was really nice…most of the time we’re just busy doing our daily job…when i was in the meeting, i kept thinking…..hey…as much as we have our ups and downs with each other (colleagues) things are not as bad as i thought….at least there isn’t anyone that we hate to the core at this moment….no matter how we fight…we could still manage to bring it to past somehow…

I’m glad to have all these colleagues who care for me and who is supportive of me….

Bought a mango moose cake from Bakerzin and waited 40mins at the man’s office lobby….finally saw him…almost cried….

Went over to his house for him to change and head over to Novena’s church mass…even though we were late…oops…

After church, head down to the Brazilian Buffet Restaurant at Sixth Avenue for a sumptuous dinner….talked over the dinner about the situation we are both facing…i cried again….damn…

Went back to his place to cut his birthday cake with his parents…he is just like a kid….asking me to clap when he cuts the cake…haha…so cute….

Final conclusion: Let’s wait for the HR to tell me my package first….

Sigh…..i dunno what i should do…damn…..

ne person ever said:

"I’ll rather regret something that I’ve done than regret on something i didn’t do."

Whoa……

Still in a dilemma….