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Because my birthday falls on Monday (01/10)…therefore, i’ve decided to pamper myself by taking a break from work for 2 solid days (today and monday)…..I was joking with JC when i told her i’m taking 2 days leave because i’ll be having a 4 days 3 nitez birthday celebration….hee hee

Finally met up with Uncle Leong Teck again for lunch…went to this German Restaurant: Brotzeit at Vivo City….while waiting for him to arrive, i ordered this really nice drink…can’t remember the name but was made of beer with a little mango juice…taste really good considering the fact i’m more of a vodka person than a beer person….come to think of it, it’s probably the first time i had a beer during lunch….and the feeling was GREAT!!! Ok i admit…i’m a bit of a lover for alcohol but don’t get me wrong…i don’t really drink a lot but i do fancy a drink or 2 once a while…in a German Restaurant…i can’t help but to order their German sausage….i love sausages…don’t ask me why…i guess it’s convenient, easy to cook and really tasty food….i’ll probably cook a lot of sausages for my hubba in the future…hee hee…cos it’s just so easy to cook them….ok beer + sausages for lunch = GREAT MEAL!!! Oh he even got me a perfume from his last trip to Korea…Bvlgari’s Omnia (Bvlgari’s newest light, modern oriental fragrance is a sexy blend of
mandarin, saffron, Masala tea, and white chocolate. This scent smells
truly good enough to eat.) Never use this perfume before but i really like the scent of it….i’ve always love perfume!!! if i could i would buy all the perfume in the world!!! wahahaha….

After lunch, i went shopping alone!!! It’s been quite awhile since i last went shopping alone….very determined to shop for clothes….thank God that i managed to whip up 2 dresses and 2 blouses from our beloved Far East Plaza, 1 ring from Topshop @ Vivo City and 1 novel from Kinokuniya @ Takashimaya….i’ve always enjoyed shopping alone….cos i feel that i’ll be more fruitful as compared to shopping with someone around me….however, the good thing about having your bf to shop with you is when you have someone to help you carry all the stuffs you’ve bought…hee hee evil me….finally managed to grab the novel (My Sister’s Keeper by Jodi Picoult ) i’ve been wanting to buy!!! All in all it has been a fruitful shopping trip and off i am to my dinner appointment with my closest friends for my pre-birthday celebration!!!

Met up with Ah Heng (running buddy), Kaiwei (who just came back from the States), Kunmu (who always stood by me no matter what i’m going thru), Kunmu’s sister (who is also Kaiwei’s gf) and the man (Mr Ling) at the famous seafood stall around Seletar Reservoir for a sumptuous seafood dinner. We had:

1. Fish
2. Butter Prawns
3. 2 Chilli Crabs
4. Sambal Kang Kong
5. Claypot tofu
6. Yam Pie

The total bill comes up to an astonishing S$170.78!!! But it was all worth it….money doesn’t matter much when you are having the meal with those people who you put closest to your heart!!!

After dinner program was to go KTV @ Party World (Yishun Safra branch)….to my amazement that 3 of my other secondary school classmates were also there in 3 different rooms….1 of them in particular that i really have to mention is Audrey!!! I haven’t seen her since we left secondary school….both of us were so happy to see each other again….i was so glad that she remembered my birthday even before anyone told her about it….she even got me a glass of Vodka + Ribena and got the waitress to send it to my room….how sweet….after meeting her…it bought back a lot of memories in secondary school…..really miss those times….

Alright…enough said…i’m dead beat and need to get some rest….Ciao

came and gone like a wind….it’s amazing how times has flew by our lives….it’s been like 7 years since she has started a completely new life in Ozzie all by herself…..and it’s sad that she has become a passerby in my life these days…..

Listen to the song here in my heart
a melody I start but can’t complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all ’cause you won’t listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I’m not at home in my own home
And I’ve tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I’m done believing you
You don’t know what I’m feeling
I’m more than what
You’ve made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I’ve gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I’m screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
All ’cause you won’t listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I’m not at home in my own home
And I’ve tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I’m done believing you
You don’t know what I’m feeling
I’m more than what
You’ve made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I’ve gotta find my own

I don’t know where I belong
But I’ll be moving on
If you don’t, if you won’t

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don’t know not what I am feeling
I’m more than what you’ve made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

So many things have happen to me in such a short time frame….i can’t help but wonder if i’m really alright…i would like to believe that i am…..sigh….

Met Ah Yu for supper just now….talked to her for what seems like forever…haha until when we’re about to leave…the waiter asked if we were long lost friends….told her what happen to me recently….told her how i feel about everything….told her that i feel burden recently….sigh

i don’t really know what is bothering me….i guess it’s a little bit of everything….i’m sick and tired of always putting others before me….sick and tired of always having to consider others feelings before mine…..when would others put me before them….

Today at work…JC sense that i’m not the normal cheerful person and kept asking me what’s wrong…i really want to tell her the reason…but i don’t even know what’s wrong….i’m just unhappy….i’m just depressed….maybe cos the monthly thing is here or maybe i’ve accumulated alot of unsaid unhappiness with everything…

i just hope that things will turn out to be better than i thought….

The man and i have began our house hunting journey…..it’s both exciting and tiring at the same time….last weekend…we went to view 3 show flats @ La Casa Executive Condo by HDB and to be very honest….I fell deeply in love with it…and there was this particular unit that i was hoping to start a small family with the man…but it was kind of over priced…therefore….i had no choice but to obey the man’s decision of not getting that pad…

Yesterday viewed a total of 6 resale condo….3 in Northoak and 3 in Woodsvale…none of them caught the man and mine attention…for me mainly is because i kept comparing it to La Casa….as for the man…he was the more sensible one….comparing the prices and evaluating if it’s a good buy….we have come to this conclusion that right now…property market is soaring and it’s not a wise time to get a private apartment…therefore, we’ve sort of decided that we might get a HDB instead…

Ok before i get all excited about this….the man has not pop the question yet….but we did went ring hunting as well….**smile smile**….before the ring hunting i kept saying i want a 5 carat diamond ring…hee hee….but a 1 carat diamond ring can cost up to 10k already lor…..sigh….i bet the man is feeling stressed up…but to be honest…of course i don’t need a 5 carat ring lar…and we also can’t afford it mah….but i think an engagement ring is pretty important lor….we kept joking about it….he said…i so blur blur…even if he gets me a fake one i also dunno one…wah lau…but i think it’s true lor….seriously how to know unless bring the jewellery shop mah….

Feeling: Blessed

And why can’t things be simpler for me….I’m a very simple person….

Today i followed the man to the Subaru fan club gathering….i always make fun of him when he goes there…cos i said they must have some kind of weird anthem for the club that they have to sing in each gathering and say a pledge….wahahaha….

Ok…when i was @ the gathering….seriously i was amazed by the number of people who turned up…i mean it was like about 15 people….all of them Subaru car owners…who are meeting up just to discuss about their cars….can you imagine it….they were talking and talking about their cars throughout the entire gathering…all the topics are about this car part and that car part….wah…i’m seriously impress lor….they are really hardcore man….

Hee hee….i was the only girl @ the gathering….i dunno if it’s a man thing that they don’t bring along their wifes and girlfriends or what lar….but felt a bit strange hanging out with all these hardcore drivers…but was quite an experience though….being able to be that part of the man’s life is quite nice….hee hee i don’t mind going to the next gathering if the man ask me….

Today I’ve officially introduced the man to my family and also to my relatives @ my grandma’s place to celebrate my cousin, Jie Qi’s 7th birthday.

Not sure how the man really feels about the whole thing….but it’s really really a big thing in my family….cos my mom ever told me not to introduce any of my bf to her unless i’m serious about the relationship (i.e. the relationship will lead to a marriage)….it’s kind of old fashion way of thinking but i quite like the idea…cos it makes a lot of difference when you do introduce your bf to her…hee hee

i was so excited about the whole thing…maybe i didn’t really show it on the outside…but i really do…

So many things have happened between me and the man….i just hope that this second chance….this relationship will turn out to be a blessing from God…

After the party…the man and i went to watch Evan Almighty @ The Cathay….i love that movie!!!! I don’t know how to explain that feeling…but whoever loves God would probably understands how i feel…most people just think it’s another comedy but i think it’s much more than that…that was even a point where i cried…because it’s so touching…i mean the whole movie is just so touching…i kept saying God is great and truly to be praise in my heart while watching the show…

It’s really about God’s love and how men should be obedient and understands that no matter what God does…He does it because He loves us. So often we tend to neglect God and only seek God’s help when we’re in a crisis….but that really shouldn’t be the case….we should really seek God anytime and anywhere….

After this whole incident between me and the man….I’ve really understand the true meaning of seeking God’s kingdom first….during that one week when i was in depression…whenever i read the bible…whenever i prayed….the same thing that keeps running in my mind was "Seek HIS Kingdom first"

I want to keep doing that whether i’m happy or sad….

P.S: I think I need to get the DVD of this movie….and i think this movie is so much better than Bruce Almighty….