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This whole move to London thing has made me ultra emotional lately. It really made me think a lot, especially on the topic of who are the most precious people in your life!! After much thinking, it really boils down to the following people apart from your family and boyfriend:

- Shuyu
- Kunmu
- Kaiwei

Of the 3 people mentioned above, the person I think I’m going to miss the most has got to be Kunmu. He has really been there for me through thick and thin. He has done so much in my life that I will be forever grateful for and there is no way I can ever repay his kindness. I’m not even sure if he remembers what he has done for me.

Kunmu if you are reading this, I just want you to know that I’m grateful for the time you spent with me when Siva and I broke up. Thank you for spending time with me when Mr Ling and I broke up last year. Thank you for always being there for me when shit happens. Thank you for consoling me when I cry. Thank you for everything you have ever done, no matter how small it can be, I am grateful.

Honestly, I never thought that I’ll be missing this special friend so much until now. I never truly realize how important Kunmu is to me!! I guess because I always take it for granted that whenever I am in trouble or when I am upset, he is by default by my side. And now that I’ll no longer have him around when I’m in London, I then realize his importance.

I was telling Kaiwei the other day about this and he agrees that Kunmu is indeed very important to me. Especially when Kaiwei is away in Arizona working and Shuyu can only meet me twice per week, Kunmu is the only person who is always there for me 24/7. Over the years, Kunmu has really been the one person who is constantly there for me.

I really really hope that Kunmu can find his true happiness soon.I know that whoever is his girlfriend will be the luckiest girl cos he has so much love to offer. Don’t be deceive by his appearance!!! Like he always said "wo heng chou ke shi wo heng wen rou" or rather we always said that about him. He has got to be the most faithful man I’ve seen, when he loves a person, his love is steadfast and everlasting.

Kaiwei and I have been spending a lot of time with him recently, cos this time round after Kaiwei leave for Arizona, I’ll also be leaving for London and Kunmu will be all alone in Singapore. At least last time after Kaiwei leave, there is still me constantly bugging Kunmu.

Dear God, please bless Kunmu in all the ways possible. Let him have the happiest life that he can ever imagine. Bless him in all aspect of his life, his career, his family and his relationship.

Feeling: So bless to have known Shuyu, Kunmu and Kaiwei

Went to do my hair at Raffles Place in the afternoon and wasn’t happy with the outcome, therefore, I decided to do some shopping to get rid of the unhappiness. Guess what, I’ve bought 2 more pairs of shoes…wahahaha….When I told Kunmu, Kaiwei and Mr Ling….they all faint….cos I’ll be like shipping 2 boxes of shoes to London already and I’m still buying more shoes to add on to my existing collection…

The shop I went to didn’t have my size, so I’ll only be able to collect my new shoes a couple of days later. I’ll load the photos of my new babies and justify my purchase. They are simply irresistible to a shoe lover like me. **wink** **wink**

KKK = Kunmu + Kaiwei + Kaixin

We are the newly declared KKK gang…hehe

I’ve known both of these dudes for ages now…come to think of it, it’s been 13 years since I’ve known both of them!!! Wah…

Was on leave yesterday because I had to do some serious packing for my trip to London, as the people who are in charge of shipping my stuffs are coming over on Friday to check the stuffs I’m bringing.  Woke up really late due to the KTV session the night before with Ah Yu and her sister which ended at about 2.45a.m….

Started packing and packing and my room seems more and more messy…sigh…it seems like I’ve thrown away a lot of stuffs but the room still seems like there are lots more to throw away…aiyo…over the years I’ve like collected so much rubbish lor…haiz…

Anyway, met up with the other Ks for our "Crab Eating Session" at the so called famous stall in Ang Mo Kio but seriously lor, I think the crabs there are so so only leh…don’t know why people think that it’s that fantastic lor.

After dinner, we headed to this "Die Da Sinsei" place as Kaiwei injured his hand a couple of months back. Once there, the sinsei started rubbing some oil on Kaiwei’s back and then started doing this "Gua Sha"…immediately we saw his back turning red and he was sweating like mad and said it’s painful.

Kunmu and I were laughing at Kaiwei cos we said he is really "zhong du tai shen" that’s why those red patches appear. According to the sinsei, the red patches show that there are blood clog on his back and that his injury has prevented the blood from circulating properly. Wah….this is the first time I’ve seen and heard this.

Therefore, we decided to "you fu tong xiang you nan tong dang", we requested the sinsei to do the same to Kunmu to check if he is also "zhong du tai shen". Hehehe evil me cos I know I don’t have to do this "gua sha" thingy cos I’m a girl and the sinsei can’t do that to me…wahahahaha….in the end, as we have expected, Kunmu also became a red lobster…

But Kunmu didn’t complain that it was painful or anything…he is really "nan ren zhong de nan ren"….wah admire admire….Actually I did video clip down the process of the "gua sha" session on Kunmu but unfortunately, I can’t load them onto this blog. Sigh….it’s pretty amazing though.

Kunmu and Kaiwei think that it’s unfair that I didn’t get the torture that they had and they wanted me to have a taste of it too, they requested the sinsei to check if my legs are ok. I was really scared cos I saw how scary the truth can be and also I’ve no freaking idea how painful it can be as well lor!!! At first when the sinsei was rubbing my leg, the pain was still bearable….

But as he continued!!! Aaahhhhh help help…..

Based on the photo above, you can just imagine how painful it was. I had to hold on to Kunmu and eventually I even jumped out of the chair that I was sitting. The sinsei asked me to allow him to rub further to "cure" me and I was like over my dead body lor. Kunmu and Kaiwei finally talked me into getting "cured" and so the sinsei did some kind of a "qi gong" thing on my leg and the next moment the pain is completely gone. I kid you not, it’s so amazing that I am still figuring out the logic behind it!!!

The final conclusion is that I’m the healthiest among all…wahahaha….The sinsei proceeded to give Kunmu and Kaiwei this weird drink that looks like "ju hua cha" and gave them their medication…what an experience. But the best part of all, is that we did these together as the KKK and I would like to think of it as it has bonded us to a completely different level…

Feeling: Kunmu and Kaiwei are such precious friends to me.

Today marks the last day I saw the Red Palm Treo 680…sob sob….sold it to a nice guy called Peter via Hardwarezone. Made a loss but I guess it’s better to sell it now then later to prevent more losses. After using it for around a couple of months, I would say that Palm Treo 680 is probably the easiest handphone to sync and install softwares with. I’ve tried installing softwares to Windows Mobile OS but I find it much harder to do it as compared to Palm OS. The main reason for me to sell off this baby is probably because my appetite for latest gadgets have increase tremendously. Apart from that, the sad thing about this phone is that it doesn’t have WIFI function and doesn’t support Chinese texting. All in all, it’s still a pretty awesome phone if it’s for normal pda purpose.

Now I’ve switched back to my old beloved phone, my Samsung i600 which hasn’t fail me yet. I’ve decided to install some cool software to this phone and really personalize it until I’ve found a new phone that can satisfy my appetite.

I love you Mr Ling!!!

I’ve been feeling pretty stressed up with a couple of things happening in my life right now, i.e. preparing to leave Singapore and financial burden at home. To a lot of people, it seems like I have it all. I have a great job, I’m earning enough to help finance my family and I’m having the opportunity of a lifetime to relocate to London…But underneath all these, I’m scared and tired. As much as I’m glad about moving to London, I’m scared of the move. I know this is what I’ve always wanted but I’m still scared. I haven’t really started packing yet and trust me, I’ve no freaking idea what I should bring and if I have enough money to survive there. Although the company is paying the air fare and the first month accommodation, rental in London is crazy and I’ll probably need to drop 2 months rental at first (1 month for deposit and 1 month for the rent). That can be a lot of money cos everything is in pounds. I’ve been searching online of the potential places to live in and trust me, it’s really not that easy when you are not earning a lot. I can always rent a cheap place that is probably pretty dodgy or rent a nice place and I have to cut down my spending on other stuffs. Sigh…

As much as I can help finance my family, I’m tired. I have never work in London before, therefore, I’m not 100% sure if my salary allows me to save and contribute more at home. I’ve calculated and it should be enough but there is always this "What if" thought lingering in my mind. I do not want this move to UK thing be a burden to anyone in my family and recently with an added responsibility, I just feel a little more frustrated. I guess things will be better once I settle down in London.

Wish me luck.

Honestly, I haven’t been listening to chinese songs for quite a while and today while I took a bus from Plaza Singapura home, during the long journey back, I was listening to 93.3FM and heard this song. I kind of like it, not sure why, it’s kind of sad but yet romantic..

I Have A Dream
作詞：姚謙 / 作曲：陳科妤

我夢見你 在未來某一天的你
白髮依稀 微笑的唇還如往昔
看你的手 雖然皺紋已清晰
牽手的勁 依然像昨日般力氣

夢見自己 我看到從前的自己
有些任性 只因當時身邊有你
離開你 若干年後才明白 真愛難覓

In my dream 最後我們會重遇
我的手 停泊在你的手心
不再逃離 直到世界停止了四季
我願意 I have a dream

I have a dream 在你懷中慢慢清醒
每個夜裡 看著你輕輕睡去
風再亂 我們牽著手而行
永不棄 永不離

In my dream 最後我們會重遇
我的手 停泊在你的手心不再逃離
直到世界停止了四季
我願意

這世界
越來越多 壞的消息
是非曲直的議題 讓人已忘記
也只有愛 可以抵抗黑白藍綠

In my dream 最後我們會再重遇
我的手 停泊在你的手心 我不再逃離
一直到世界停止了四季
我願意

In my dream
我們注定要再相遇
而風和雨 將在你和我的愛裡得到平息
天知道我到底有多愛你
我愛你