ihavepmsagain

Frankly speaking, when I reached London, I didn’t feel scared anymore. Not sure if it’s for the fact that Neil was with me or the fears just left me. I felt really happy and comfortable being in London. It’s not really that scary at all.

First day at work, Paul my boss came to the office lobby to fetch me and entrusted me to Ed who is my supervisor to look after me. All in all, my colleagues are really nice and I got along really well with everyone. The intern in my team even said he can’t believe this is my first time in Europe cos I behaved like I’ve stayed here all my life. Maybe my ability to adapt to a new environment is a lot stronger than I thought.

I felt that I’ve become the independent Tracy again. I used to be so independent in the past before I met Siva who completely changed my life. This time round, I’m not going to let anyone or anything take that independence from me again. By saying this, Mr Ling and I have parted ways. I don’t really want to go into details of what happen but I’ll always love him but now I guess I’ve to love him in a different way.

I guess he is right, I’m not ready for a relationship and through the ups and downs we had in the past, it’s not been easy for me to carry on. Mr Ling has been great in so many ways but at the same time, I’ve been hurt in certain ways too. It’s not anyone’s fault but I guess the timing is really wrong. Who knows, maybe our paths will cross again.

I have faith in God to bring the right man into my life and if Mr Ling is the right man, our paths will definitely cross again.